| Months have passed since my last update. Not sure if anyone roams
around this place... Unsure if it matters to anyone. There isnt much I
can say nor express. My emotions are numbed and funny thing is, I know
how to express myself. I guess I lost the ability like I did with
drawing/sketching... Just been playing Neopets and Maple Story
sometimes GunBound... -sighs- I kind of wished things werent the way
they were... Its lonely and cold.
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| A part of me wishes I can go back in time. Another part wants me to
forget back the past and leave it as it is. Either one, I cannot do.
The most I can do is just move on. Thing is, it is very difficult but
perhaps, thats how I get my true happiness. School is nearing for us
all... Summer Vacation is almost over. For some, it is the same old
thing with more complex material. For me, it is a brand new start.
Hopefully, I am able to catch up with my life, before time runs out. I
always say... there isnt enough time, while others imply, you have all
the time in the world. It makes me wonder a lot. In my condition, I
wonder so many things. People tell me, its best if I do not think so
much. In my mind and heart, I do. Seriously unable to stop myself from
being drowned by my own questions, I try to get a grip on each day...
Days go by fast... Sooner or later, by the time you know it... Youre 18
and have to go to college if you are attending... Isnt much time left
is there? =']
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| It has been a long while ever since I had been here. Inside I honestly
feel that my privacy is broken upon these web pages... Certain things
among my memories haunts me. The past comes back to bite me. Unsure
what to think, unclear what to do. Certainly, its Memories Never
Forgotten.
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| Attempting to manage with life... but thing is... The memories still
haunt me... I know I cant forget those times... Wondering if these
thoughts were just a fantasy that will never be revived... Then again,
perhaps Ill be able to feel this type of tenderness and affection
again... It seems... warm inside and all my problems are swept away.
Despite of whats happening with my life now, which crumbles beneath my
feet... I look forward to that day where I can once again feel
secure... without a doubt... Understanding... Wishing... these tears
wouldnt be shed in vain... These tears cant stop... but one day... Just
one day...
Its been too much stress for the last week or 2... Cant seem to deal
with this headache and I tend to wobble... Eh...Hitting your head with
a book actually help a bit... But after a while... youre wondering if
youre going to be retarded afterwards... Eh...
I dont know who the hell keeps calling my house but it leaves my mind hanging... -_-;;
By the ways... Hoping to see some of you people in the Spring Break...
Wanting to break out this darkness and visit the light that blinds me
so greatly... ::sighs::
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| Trying to pick up pieces of my heart together... Trying to cope with
the sadness... Trying to deal with the laughter of my pain... Trying to
find answers to my problems and questions... Trying to start a new
life... Trying to overcome my fears... Trying to make myself worthy... Trying to look forward for
someone to care... Trying to edure my feelings... Trying to cope with the lies... Trying to find where
I am... Trying to understand... Trying to look for a light... Trying to
get up the stairs... Trying to wait patiently in my maze... with
thousands of barriers... Trying... Im... trying...
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